Happily Never After

FK THAT B!TCH! HOW CAN U IMAGINE ANYONE THATTHAT...MEAN?! YEAP THATS THE WORD. PURE DEVIL-NESS! THIS BIRD-NEST-BRAIN GIRL IN OUR CLASS! ok, so i told you i dropped my phone into the toilet right? so from then on i scared bring my phone into the toilet. than got one time me and that woman go toilet together i ask her help me take my phone when she wait outside. more than half a month passed. my guy friend said that he mysteriously had two of my photos. he show me. IT WAS FREEKING MY OWN PRIVATE ZI PAIS ON MY PHONE! no one saw those photos except for my two girlfriends in class. one is my bestie the other is that woman. so i ask the guy friend and found out. that stupid woman. cheng when i was in the toilet. use my phone to send photos to him thro my gmail. (we have wifi in our toilet XD) so all along my guy friend have received emails with my photos sent from my account. -.-

Soccer game

YAWW BABEE (: havent updated since a while. we went to some field in tainan city and played soccer for almost 3 days. (no class SHIOK but damn bored cos i don rlly kick ball so i just went there to watch and help look after our bags) GUESS WHAT HAPPENED AT THE GAME? ppl got injured AGAIN -.- this is why i hate soccer. someone broke his right wrist just by doing warm-ups on the first day. another someone twisted his left ankle after the first game. and another someone twisted his right ankle and hurt his left knee on the second day. and another someone i think pulled a muscle or nerve or smth while he skidded all the way into the goal and scored our first goal. u might think its worth it since it was like our only goal in 3 games (we lost rlly badly XD) but lemme tell you ITS NOT ONE BIT WORTH IT! I HATE YOU FOR DOING THAT TO ME! got me so worried >< yesterday my bestie came over for sleepover and we kinda talked too much-- SHE talked too much XD dude! i was like PLS LEMME SLEEP @@ and she just kept on waking me but  gave up at about 11 and went to play with her phone till 1130 XD WE HAD FUN~~ nowadays quite bored ah no hw cos didnt have much class and i cant rlly go on skype too early to chat cos of my freeking dad -.- i was like searching for random sheet music and song lyrics and some rlly nice quotes. wanna share a couple of them which i rlly liked:
"If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears."
"Everyone's going to hurt you, you've just got to find the ones worth suffering for."
" The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in."
" Nothing hurts more than realizing he meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to him."
"Sometimes it's better to leave things broken, because if you try to fix it, you may end up getting hurt all over again."
"Roses are Red, 
Violets are Blue, 
Who cares what color the flower is, 
as long as it's from you."

MY LIFE (;

AN EARLY BIRTHDAY PRESENT FROM MY MOM ! (;

a bag i so wanted long time ago. brought from bugis street. ZINC shop. cost about $45 bucks. the guy gave discount. paid $40 bucks (; awesome shop xD

HEHE, my birthday (; 9 more days to go and counting down ! <3 I WONDER WHAT MY CLIQUE BROUGHT ME :P cant wait for my birthday ! ;D and i have a feeling that on my birthday, im gonna cry while receiving all those pressies :P hahaha. 9 more days and to my birthday. 9 more days and im gonna be one year older. haiz ); hate getting old even im like still young now ._. hahaha. and 9 more days to my BIRTHDAY BASH ;D anyway, hope life's been treating you well lollipop ! ;D keep smiling !


ps : i hope he really gives me a present on my birthday ): i hope it wouldnt be any empty promises ):


quote for the day ! so, love your friends (; because they are the best people in the world. even if some of them ever betrayed you, dont be sad (; there's still so many other friends worth crying for. dont be angry at those enemies you got, dont even give a damn bout them (; just keep smiling (; they hate to see those smile on your faces. so, SMILE MORE ! (; MAKE THEM PISSED ;D

(; HEYLO.

@ lollipop : chill dearest. (; what's up wif her ? and okay, i dk if the her im talking bout and the her you're talking about are the same ;X so, nvm (; i know you're pissed. but, just chill (;

and yo ! sorry for not posting for the past few times (; was busy wif school. okay, not say really busy. but cuz exam coming. and im like lazy on computer. yes (; you read that right. 'IM LAZY TO ON THE COMPUTER' hahahahaah. it's friday and there's no school because there's speech day and all the sec 4s and 5s will be in school taking their certificates or something. yeap. actually, i can go luh. but like, one sec2 there extra extra one :P hahaha. and im coughing real bad and i keep eating that damn strepsils. and i end up keep relying on the strepsils. LOL. i dont wanna go speech day because of my cough. it's like some serious event. den skali ltr i end up coughing and coughing. den everyone look at me, damn paiseh :P hahah. okay, so many things bout me and him (; alot of people ask me uh, like why i like him. so i end up replying all of them " if you were me, you'd know why . because i cant put it into words to explain to you " (; so, hahaha. even the teachers know. yeap. and my maths teacher came to talk to me. she asked me again if im with him and so on. and i keep denying obviously. den she told me like, about his behavior in class isnt really doing well. so i got to kinda like have a friend to friend talk wif my teacher (; and, practically i think the whole school know bout me and him. yes, and i meant the whole school. except for some of the teachers of course (;  so everytime when we hang out outside my class at bout the last 20 mins of our recess, we will be like sitting outside my class, okay. holding hands. yes, holding hands. haha. and i swear, a few minutes ltr, the 3rd and 4th level will have students standing at the railings looking towards me and him. and thats when the " oohhh ~ " and " ahhs " began. hahahah. okay so.., we kinda had a fight yesterday. i forgot what's the fight about. but he sent me to the interchange and while waiting for the bus OUTSIDE SCHOOL, he put his arm around my shoulder, den he hug me. yes, he took advantage :P hahahahha. den i was like " EHH YOU ! TAKE ADVANTAGE :P " hahaha. yeap, and today we both good mood (; hahah. and we both seem to be running out of topics to talk bout. so we start saying " what you doing " damn boring ._. but i still love him (; okay, i swear. i cant stop listening to FANTASTIC BABY everytime i on the computer. haha. i even vandalised my school table. and i wrote " fantastic baby " now im like singing " i wanna dance dance dance dance dance ~ wow, FANTASTIC BABY " woohoo. and i seem to have a headache. haha. i guess i slept too late and woke up too early. actually also not that late lo. like 1130, den woke up at 8. lol. okay, gtg do my elearning. BYE ~ (; will post pictures afterwards (;

Even technology fails

hihi okay so it seems like theres something wrong with my whole posting process and im supposed to like have posted 2 posts so far but nothing came out so im too lazy to type everything again so im just gonna lay out the main points i hav made in my 'previous posts': BIGBANG+SHINEE=24/7 <3 woots youre my fantastic baby and sherlock (clue+note) *shinees back* but right now im more in love with another guy called MARIO MAURER hes the main character in this thai movie that our math teacher showed us during class time (shiok right?) damn shuai~ oh oh btw go check out 'glad you came [hassy]' on youtube i likey <3 just as how much i like tops blue hair~ (and im finally learning my lesson this time so i have alrdy copied this entire thing so when it doesnt post again i can just paste ^^ smart right? XDD)
i am officially starting my post this time...lemme start off by saying... fuck! srsly i just feel like swearing and crying my heart out now and dying due to anger. okok this is meh messed up story of my life today. is his bdae. so its suppose to be happy and all until. she. she went flipping thro my bag and digging almost every single thing out and messing up everything early in the morning. than she found it. the card. i only promised my other friend to let her see the cover of the card. i didnt even give her permission to look into the contents of the card. and guess what? same old story of the book. some kay po. that she. just went *read* aww you even said *and blabs out the contents of the card to the whole class* -.- does she not have common sense? does she have an analysising prob? didnt i just not mention it first thing in the morning i don wan anyone to read the card beside the pax who it was meant for? so there. two things. wait actually three things im mad at. first that she looking into my bag and looking at the card without my permission. second ok fine so maybe you might say whats the matter? the contents doesnt rlly mean anything either doesnt mean you can go invading into ppls privacy just to find something that 'uninteresting' (thats one reason too. make it a 4. thats so mean? this card means a lot to me and maybe you dont know that or prob youre just jelly much i bet. thats still no excuse to say that!) and didnt even apologise for it. third after that than going on and saying the contents to the class. and you even made it like a matter of fact what you did was right and how i was behaving so madly was wrong. i swear i just wanted to crush you that instant. and after that when he ordered drink for me. i thank you for telling him what i dont drink so he could order the right drinks that i liked. but after that even if i promised when you asked if you could a little of my drink (mainly out of courtesy not our friendship or so called friendship) you just went drinking like a..a..no word to describe that was like..you drank almost over half of the entire 1000cc drink! great~ what a perfect day~ fml.

HELLO (:

@ lollipop : HAHAHA. IDK (: waiting though. hehe. waiting for somebody. haha. that somebody.., you know luh. (: haha. im not wif the other guy. he tell other people he dont want stead wif me -.-

so, HEHE. so long didnt go online ready ;D wasw enjoying life. haha. and OMG. big bang new awesome song !! FANTASTIC BABY <3 obsessed wif that song man ! FREAKING BLOODY AWESOME. and blues. (: SHINee has new songs too ! UNDER SHERLOCK ALBUM. hehe. but im more obsessed wif sherlock. WOOHOO. big bang and SHINee, back and rocking the stageee ~ ! xD

Time to Change that Relationship Status

@kpoplover WAAAAIITTT? PAUSE THAT! WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY YOURE GOING TO BE WITH SOMEONE ELSE SOON? MSN SOON PLEASEE!
haha we just had our NIFTy debate competition today~ and it kinda sucked... XDD idk for our first round but we lost our second round. but for the entire junior varsity team we were co-winners. and for the varsity team we lost to TAS :((( oh well~ we won last year so~ XDD NANKE BD STILL ROCKS 24/7!~ <3

He will one day understand.

Now he's back. And I realized. He's like my drug. I'm always addicted to texting him. Den now. I'm about to be in a relationship with another guy. He tells me he wouldnt be talking to me anymore. All of them told me. I can't have 2 guys in my life at the same time. Why? It's like twilight. Bella likes jacob and Edward. Jacob's a guy who always back her up when she's not okay. She wants both Jacob and Edward. But she can live without Jacob but not Edward. I can live without both guys. But I would chose to be with him. But yet i don't want to be in a relationship with him. Den what exactly do i want!? You said I treated you like a tool More like the other guy's a tool. He's a tool to make you jealous. He's a tool To make you forget me and go to her. He's a tool For me. I did everything for you. FOR YOU. But you couldn't see it. If only you could read my mind. Like how Edward Cullen read other people's mine.

mang lai mang qu de

this few days damn busy sia. got nifty debate competition coming up in like 5 days. world scholars cup coming in less than a month. midterms coming up in a months plus. than later got finals follow up. than end of this year still got theory exam. and then still got more jian dings, SSATs, PreSATs, SATs, APs, MUN to take in future plus piano. god ah save me ah~ and than these few days i feel so mean and guilty. somehow i tend to throw my temper on my friends more frequently. ignoring people who care abt me. taking my parents care for granted. taking my teachers for granted. i guess i must look like a real spoilt bitch right now. im so srry, i rlly am, its just im so stressed up right now, i dont know what to do, what to feel. everythings happening in a rush and i just start to doubt every detail, everyone. its just sucks more that we are dissecting pigs in life science lab! and some crazy teacher is too stupid to understand when i told him not to mark my wb chapter 8 becos im not done with it yet! W.H.Y.

DAMN

dammit dammit dammit. I JUST CANT GET YOU OFF MY MIND, COULD I !? why ? why must you always be there ? trying to forget you. but just those memories of us, it just keeps flooding back ! damn. i nid someone to brainwash me. i just want to get run over by a car, get a head concussion and forget you ! i just gotta control myself. but why!? I CANT GET MYSELF TO DO THAT. i kept reading our messages , our convos on facebook. sometimes, i just smile to myself. den you will be back into my head. damn ! why !? just fucking go to her and forget me ! you are obviously playing favoritism ! you can actually tell her " tell me if she scolds you. i help you scold her back " damn ! you are protecting her. damn. my best friend, you like her. now i beginning to suspect her. she actually told you that i plan to scold her ? motherfuckingcb. you listened to her !? HOW COULD YOU !? this is unfair. my friends told you to fuck off, all because you kept disappointing me and making me cry. they dont wanna see me being like that anymore. and you actually told me that you cant try to shake me off because you liked me too much ? you know what ? im actually kinda happy that i didnt accept you. im glad i didnt ! because you like me and you like my best friend . thats obviously wrong ! it's total bullshit man. i know. after a few days, you will be back to me. but what will i get ? nothing. just an apology and " iloveyou " you obviously still like her ! you are obviously making use of me when you're bored ! i know. i already know you were making use of me. but what did i do ? i let you make use of me. because i know im already starting to fall for you again. i rather she not even borned ! why !? why is everyone going to her !? why !? she's not even fucking little pretty. she's not ! fine, im vain. i want everything to myself. but isnt that what every girl wants !?it's always breaking inside me whenever you tell me bout her. but i didnt show it. i didnt wanna let you know that im jealous. im jealous of her . so what !? im always stealing guys from her. so what !? i dont want her to get everything. it's unfair. it's unfair to me ! im always working hard for things. but she can sit there and do nothing, do unglam stuffs and people can go to her. im always watching my actions. im always watching my moves. what did i get ? NOTHING. NOTHING IN RETURN. i always hope you know how i feel. but you didnt know i have a blog. and sometimes, im glad you didnt know. other times, i hope you actually just pay some attention on me instead of her !